WOW. Where to begin. Well I have spent the last 15 years basically doing whatever I want… Basically EATING whatever I want. And let’s just say, that has taken me to a less than desirable place as far as my health, and my size. That and carrying 7 babies… That takes its own toll.

Nevertheless - I NEED CHANGE. I also need accountability. That’s why I’m here.

Truth be told, I hate talking about any struggles. HATE IT. It feels borderline complain-y to me… and it makes me feel weak. Like I’m exposing something that I can’t take back. It’s horrible. Although - if someone else wants to talk about their struggles? I am all over it. I think they are so brave, and that it’s incredibly beautiful for them to feel that free, but when it comes me? I’d rather crawl into a hole and sit quietly for a bit for the moment to pass.

But here it is. I have let myself go so far from where I’d like to be, and I’m turning that around. Totally. I can’t wait to get to a place where I’m stronger, and faster, and where I just feel more like myself than I have in a long, long time. Change is coming. It’s all happening, and I’m so thankful for the certainty in my soul that I won’t fail.